We all have our
moments.
I remember one, in
particular. I was seven or eight years old, and had just graduated from
Beginner Swimming at the neighborhood pool on Geneva St. in St. Catharines. A
summer earlier I had merely earned a participation certificate for that
class--so passing was a big deal.
Privileges accrued to
those who passed Beginner Swimming. The largest was permission to dive from the
high board--if you dared. Many kids didn't. Some climbed the ladder, walked to
the end of the board, looked down, and turned back. Climbing down they had to
squeeze by all the kids on the ladder waiting their turn to dive. Not pleasant.
Well, I passed, and
so Ernie and John and Art and several other neighborhood kids dared me. Even
now I remember clinging to the chrome railings, standing nose to back of shin
of the kid ahead of me, and the sandpaper-like feel of the plank. Soon I was
above all, looking down at the postage-sized pool fifteen feet below. I see it
all as clearly as if it was yesterday.
Then--the moment.
Flex knees, bounce up and down an inch or two. Notice friends out the corner of
my eyes. Wonder about bright reflection of sun on pool. I think that maybe I can
still back out. Maybe I will! But my body is ahead of my brain, overriding my
caution. I realize I'm committed. The dive is a go.
My moment has
arrived. It is too late to back out. But the actual terror of my headlong dive
hasn't yet begun. Already triumphant in my emotional brain, the rational part
of my brain is nevertheless still thinking belly flop, mouth-to-mouth, and
giving up the ghost. I remember this moment. It is almost unbearable but also,
mysteriously, lovely.
And then it was past.
I swam to the edge of the pool, and like an idiot lined up to do it again. But
what amazes me, even now, is that I don't remember my (by all accounts,
graceless) dive. Or hitting the water. But I do remember my moment before.
I've had a few more
since. The moment between saying, "hi," on the telephone and asking
her out on a date; the moment between stretching out my hands and catching my
first child at his birth. Last night, there was the moment I stood in the
pulpit before my new congregation for the first time, just having been
introduced, but not yet launched into my sermon.
Once again, it was
mysteriously lovely--a reminder that there is a time for everything, and a
season for every activity under the sun; a time for endings, but a time for new
beginnings, too. Thank God.
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